Write up of friday night, AFTER the Dell incident. X.x;

Went to the Beehive with Newman and had a couple of drinkies. John joined us, with his mate Terry and off we went to the station! On the way there we bumped into Bas and Gordon. Lol. Said Hi and then carried on. Got on the train, got to Kings Cross.. Then headed to Camden and as we got off of the tube, there was Damo, Pacey and Jo! Went into the World's End rather than the Elephant's head, only because we got a table. Jo bought me a drink, nice of her, and then I got to the table and Pacey had bought me a straight double Vodka, lmao. So I was like "x__o;;" and added it to my already double vodka and coke when it was lowered slightly.

Then before I knew it everyone was buying me drinks, and I ended up with far too many. I had 3 shots, which isn't impressive, but I did them with Damo which was great. Eventually I bought a round. Haha. I still like £70 when I bought the round.. No I lie, I had £80 odd. Then before I knew it Newman was gone and we were heading off to Damo's.

We got on one bus, and then waited for another and passed a hot dog vender. John and Pacey got one so I decided to.. Then this fuck head pushed over the stand just as I had got mine so it went everywhere. Then the vender said he didn't remember me paying so I had to buy another one. After we had helped him put his stand back up. >/ Wasn't impressed.

We get on the next bus and get to Damo's and he puts on some music, and plays his bongos like a drunk idiot. He rolled up a joint, and we had some hash.. then I ust fell asleep in John's lap. Poor bugger had to sleep sitting up. Woke up around 10 am, and didn't leave til about 2.. Got home around 4.

Saturday I went to blockbuster and rented some films and then John and I stayed in and watched them.

Sunday had a meal with the family at a pub in London Colney. Was good, and found out my sister and I are going to see Chicago on the west end [For you yanks, that's the British Broadway] which should be amazing!

So overall, a great weekend.

Today I had another interview. At a Soliciters. I'd be doing audio typing and occasionally answer the phones. They want someone with not much experience that they can mould to work for them. They're gunna ring me monday next week, to tell me if I got it or not.

<3J.

Well.. wow.

Last night, rofl. X____x; Yes, hungover.

We get there at like, half 5 [an hour till doors open..] and waited until about halft six, because the fucking que was around the corner and then some. I mean,  it wasn't as bad as when I went to go see Kill Switch but geeeeeese..

We get in, and John is like "need a wee, you alright on your own?" O_o I hate crowds. So I said yeah, and waited in the que for the merchandise for John. And he came back, like really quick. o.o WITH CHUPPA CHUPS! <3 lollies.

Get our t-shirts, and John gets in the drinks. Wahey. Go stand in our spot. >>; Which is goooooddd. Settled in, and I drunk my drink had my lolly. Then I was on beer. Red Stripe. .. And before I knew it, I was drunk. x____x;;

Tonight.. well... Fuck me. X.x; This morning my daddy gave me a digi box. Wicked! Cable in my room. Then I was out and about, etc etc, and I come home and something is covered up on the table. Dad dragged me to it, and lifted the cover off.. New Dell Pc. Oh. My. God. I squealed. I screamed. I jumped. I hugged. I jizzed.

So I might not be online for a couple of days while we sort it out and get it all set up, etc. Sheeesh. Crraaazzzyness. ><;

<3J.<3Parents.

Biting keeps your words at bay
Tending to the sores that stay
Happiness is just a gash away
When I open a familiar scar
Pain goes shooting like a star
Comfort hasn't failed to follow so far...

And you might say it's self-indulgent
You might say its self-destructive
But, you see, it's more productive
Than if I were to be healthy

And pens and penknives take the blame
Crane my neck & scratch my name
But the ugly marks
Are worth the momentary gain...
When I jab a sharpened object in
Choirs of angels seem to sing
Hymns of hate in memorandum

And you might say it's self-indulgent
And you might say it's self-destructive
But, you see, it's more productive
Than if I were to be happy

And sappy songs about sex and cheating
Bland accounts of two lovers meeting
Make me want to give mankind a beating

And you might say it's self-destructive
But, you see, I'd kick the bucket
Sixty times before I'd kick the habit

And as the skin rips off I cherish the revolting thought
That even if I quit
There's not a chance in hell I'd stop
And anyone can see the signs
Mittens in the summertime
Thank you for your pity, you are too kind

And you might say its self-inflicted
But you see that's contradictive
Why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?

And pain opinions are sitcom feeding
They dont know that their minds are teething
Makes me want to give mankind a beating

I've tried bandages and sinking
I've tried gloves and even thinking
I've tried vaseline
I've tried everything
And no-one cares if your back is bleeding
They're concerned with their hair receding
Looking back it was all maltreating
Every thought that occurred misleading

Makes me want to give myself a beating....

The Dresden Dolls - Bad Habit.

Download them. They're.. so good.. Seeing them in May. xD

<3J.

This week is going to be fun.

Monday - Try and find a job.
Tuesday - Attempt to clean my room.
Wednesday - Check up on the job front.
Thursday - Get self dolled up to go to Children of Bodom gig with John.
Friday - Get up, open presents, get dolled up and go for a large piss up with John and co in London.
Saturday - Possible family meal then pub in evening with Shell and John.
Sunday - Drink some more, until I pass out.

Next week - Recover. x.x;



Septum yes? Septum no?

<3John.